Thursday, October 29, 2009

Weird Purgatory.

Ok. So, I'm going through a lot of transitions right now.

1. I start school in January.

2. I'm having problems with my apartment/property manager in regards to my apartment being low-cost and rent controlled.

3. I'm filing for bankruptcy.


All of these things have been going on as early as March. I feel like I've made a lot of progress with controlling my anxiety and my outlook on things but the last two or three weeks have been EXTREMELY difficult for me and I feel a lot of my old anxiety coming back and all the physical manifestiations of it, like the constant wrenching gut, headaches, and my jaw clenching/teeth grinding. I don't want to feel this way but it's really hard to control.

I'm very worried about all of these things but especially numbers 2 and 3. Everyone tells me not to worry but honestly, how can I not be worried? Especially when I'm trying to be as constructive as I possibly can about these things and I'm kind of waiting on other people at this point..

I feel like I'm in this weird purgatory... and I just want everything to be tied up in a neat little bow and be as little as a shit show as possible.




Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Someday I will actually post something relevant..

I started a new job on Tuesday. I have an awesome new uniform and everything...



Lion Tamer!! The lion I'm taming is named Toby.


And now for another scene from that cinematic masterpiece, Teen Witch (the best part is the guy in the red headband around 1:32:










Saturday, October 17, 2009

Oh Lula, how I love thee..

I promise to start posting for reals soon but in the meantime: