Weird Purgatory.

Ok. So, I'm going through a lot of transitions right now.

1. I start school in January.

2. I'm having problems with my apartment/property manager in regards to my apartment being low-cost and rent controlled.

3. I'm filing for bankruptcy.

All of these things have been going on as early as March. I feel like I've made a lot of progress with controlling my anxiety and my outlook on things but the last two or three weeks have been EXTREMELY difficult for me and I feel a lot of my old anxiety coming back and all the physical manifestiations of it, like the constant wrenching gut, headaches, and my jaw clenching/teeth grinding. I don't want to feel this way but it's really hard to control.

I'm very worried about all of these things but especially numbers 2 and 3. Everyone tells me not to worry but honestly, how can I not be worried? Especially when I'm trying to be as constructive as I possibly can about these things and I'm kind of waiting on other people at this point..

I feel like I'm in this weird purgatory... and I just want everything to be tied up in a neat little bow and be as little as a shit show as possible.

Someday I will actually post something relevant..

I started a new job on Tuesday. I have an awesome new uniform and everything...

Lion Tamer!! The lion I'm taming is named Toby.

And now for another scene from that cinematic masterpiece, Teen Witch (the best part is the guy in the red headband around 1:32:

Oh Lula, how I love thee..

I promise to start posting for reals soon but in the meantime:

Things To Take Notes of

Some of my reading choices are that of a 14 year old punk kid.

I worked on a photo shoot with Yoko Ono on Monday. She was really cute, nice and in AMAZING shape for being 75 years old. I poked around her website and found this interesting quote.

While I don't consider myself a pacifist, It's still interesting.

"Naturally, the common people don't want war, but after all, it's the leaders of the country who determine the policy, and it is always a simple matter to drag people along wether it's a democracy or a fascist dictatorship, or a parliament, or a communist dictator. Voice or no voice, the people can always be brought to the bidding of the leaders. This is easy. All you have to do is to tell them they are being attacked and denounce the pacifists for lack of patriotism and exposing the country to danger. It works the same in every country."

-Hermann Goering, Hitler's Reich-Marshall at the Nuremberg Trials after WWII

I kind of have a great idea for an eco-friendly fashion company..

Too bad I'm like going thru bankruptcy, and basically have no money to do this.. 

UPDATED: I almost entirely forgot about this..

So apparently I posted the wrong version of this.

Below is a more hilarious version of the same sketch.